He feels weak, like his body is giving up energy. It's like his entire being is limp and he leans into Sirius' hold, knowing that he's trying to be selfless, but knows it's selfish to ask this favour of Sirius, of all people. "These are things that happen before Blue Oblivion kicks in," he says, feeling his hope bottoming out.

"Sirius, I don't..." Another shaky sob escapes his lips. "I don't want to go back to being like that."