"No," he manages, burying his face into Sirius' back. The words will be muffled when he speaks them, but maybe it's for the best for Sirius to have to strain to hear him. "Like I'm doing this and feeling so light and perfect and ..." He bites back the last bit. He's not sure it's deep enough in the relationship for him to start talking about love, but he has the feeling that's what is setting this apart.

He had the physical stuff with Simon, to a degree. And he'd had the love with Rick.

He's never had the both together, not until now.