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roartonrisen) wrote2016-07-03 04:39 pm
roartonrisen) wrote2016-07-03 04:39 pm
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It started twenty minutes ago and Kieren can't stop it.
His hands have been shaking uncontrollably and given the non-stop black blood coming out of his nose, it's led to a lot of the drops hitting the floor. The bleeding isn't new, but this much of it all at once is and that's sort of what's really scaring him right now. He can't stop shaking, he can't stop bleeding, and he has to wonder if the NTP is coming to the end of its usefulness. He thinks that this might be the end of Kieren Walker, PDS, and a return to full-zombie Kieren.
The panic is welling up within him as he thinks of hurting people and he knows that he can't do that. This feels like losing control, like Blue Oblivion, and it just means it's only a matter of time before he goes rabid.
He can't do there here in Darrow, not where people might get hurt. That's what makes the decision for him and Kieren bolts, leaving his place in a mess of blood droplets and tissues, heading out into the country on foot. He's too cowardly to end his own life, but at least he can look for a place to hide out until it all calms down and passes over.
And if it doesn't pass? Well, then at least there's a chance someone will stop him before he gets back to the city limits.
His hands have been shaking uncontrollably and given the non-stop black blood coming out of his nose, it's led to a lot of the drops hitting the floor. The bleeding isn't new, but this much of it all at once is and that's sort of what's really scaring him right now. He can't stop shaking, he can't stop bleeding, and he has to wonder if the NTP is coming to the end of its usefulness. He thinks that this might be the end of Kieren Walker, PDS, and a return to full-zombie Kieren.
The panic is welling up within him as he thinks of hurting people and he knows that he can't do that. This feels like losing control, like Blue Oblivion, and it just means it's only a matter of time before he goes rabid.
He can't do there here in Darrow, not where people might get hurt. That's what makes the decision for him and Kieren bolts, leaving his place in a mess of blood droplets and tissues, heading out into the country on foot. He's too cowardly to end his own life, but at least he can look for a place to hide out until it all calms down and passes over.
And if it doesn't pass? Well, then at least there's a chance someone will stop him before he gets back to the city limits.
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Lifting his hand, he runs his fingers through Kieren's hair, making the strands faintly damp. "We became something that could co-exist with him. Between me, Kell, and Magnus, there must be some spell to enable me to do something similar here. With you. Not sure what it might be yet, but I've confidence I can figure it out. And I will. Do you trust me?"
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"I trust you," he murmurs. "I just don't know if I trust myself."
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It's not a might or a maybe. Sirius says it as a definitive. He's quite done with watching someone he loves go through years of misery. There's nothing he can do for Remus, especially here, but there's a chance with Kieren. And he's going to take it.